I get up around Noon today. I putz around the house for a bit before I get a call from mom at Noon. She asks me if I wanted to have lunch with her downtown. I think to myself, “Heck yeah”. I tell her I’ll be down there (Barnes and Noble) as soon as I can. I get ready pretty quick but then I have to wait 30 minutes for a cab. The cab finally comes at 12:50 and I enjoy a 5 minute ride to the Peace Plaza.
I get out of the cab and look around. I see a man with a kid in his arms and think he sort of looks familiar. I head to Barnes and Noble when I hear, “Will”. I look around and the man with the kid is Copper (fellow Jaycee). Whoops, I either need to get my eyes checked or I didn’t recognize him because he wasn’t wearing his baseball cap; both perhaps? I find out that his wife Mrs.Copper just gave birth to their new baby boy at the Methodist Hospital; I congratulate him. He was taking a break from the excitement and having lunch at Mac’s Restaurant. We also talk about his varied interviews at tests with local and not so local police departments. I congratulate him again and we part ways.
I think to myself the Jaycees should do something for him and Mrs.Copper. What I have no idea but definitely something. I leave a voicemail on Keanu’s (another Jaycee) cell phone about the idea. I’d prefer it if a non-candidate (I’m running for Jaycees Chapter Pres) brought forth the idea to the chapter. I think it would be a bit under handed if 1 candidate did it because it would be great for me but perhaps not so good for my opponent (JJ). I’d rather have the chapter vote on our merits. Hope to hear back from Keanu soon.
I get to the café at Barnes and Noble and meet up with mom. She still hasn’t decided were she wants to have lunch. I hope she decides soon because I haven’t eaten in 17 hours and I’m kind of starving. She decides on Victoria’s. We get up and leave but as soon as she walks out she decides that she’s not dressed for Victoria’s. She decides to go to Mac’s Restaurant. I like Mac’s, it’s the first restaurant we went to when we moved to Rochester. We talk for a while and at 2:05 she gets up to catch the bus. I take my time, sip my soda at chillax and at 2:17 I get up as well. I head to the 201 building.
When I get 20 feet from Mac’s I bump into Macy, a Facebook friend. Apparently she organized a flash mob that’s going to happen at the Peace Plaza at 2:30pm. I should have known something was going on because I noticed between 30 and 40 people in their late teens to early 20’s (all dressed in a very non-mainstream manner [trench coats, berets, leggings, combat boots, etc.). I decided to stick around for a bit and check it out. At 2:30 these hipsters froze in various positions. It was kind of cool to see. I enjoyed looking at the puzzled expressions of the non-frozen as they walked through the crowd. It lasts about 5 minutes.
So at 2:37 I get to the 201 building in my attempt to play catch up. I fail miserably. From 2:37pm until 6pm I do nothing. Well I go on Facebook, listen to tunes, etc; but nothing really constructive. The only good thing to come out of it was my Facebook chat with HP Fan. My goodness it’s been a long time since we chatted. We make plans to have dinner that night but her dad calls and she’s going to dinner with him. We decide to have coffee at Barnes and Noble downtown later. She’ll give me a call when she’s headed there. “I better get to work”, I thought. So from 6 to 7 I get to work a bit and play catch up. At 7 she calls and she tells me and says she’s on the way. I pack up and head to Barnes and Noble.
She gets there the same time I do. We get our hot chocolates and begin talking. We talk about exercise, friends, recent events, etc. I give CAD a quick text to see how he’s doing. It turns out he’s in Rochester. I tell him to get over to B&N. Keep in mind that HP Fan and are sitting upstairs in the café. She’s facing the Wells Fargo entrance and I’m facing the Galleria entrance. I feel a tap on my shoulder and I see L&L walking by me towards the Galleria (dinner at Chester’s I’m assuming). She doesn’t say hi or stop. As they’re walking by Bean (her husband) and her mom and dad wave and say hi without stopping. When they’re by the door I see Bean turn around and check out HP Fan. I think he’s trying to figure out who this chick is with me. I tell HP Fan that was a whole lot of crazy I wanted to avoid. She asks why and I told her I would tell her in a bit.
CAD arrives and the three of us catch up. It was good. CAD knows about some of the drama with L&L, HP Fan doesn’t. I inform them of everything. It’s a long story. At the end they’re both a little perplexed at what was going on. They both agree that L&L is playing some kind of games with this tug of war relationship we’re having. Yeah, I had that feeling for a while; it’s good to hear other people say it. Makes me happy it’s not just me thinking it. On their way back I see them again. I’m getting another hot chocolate and L&L waves to me without even looking.
So what happened? At first we could talk about anything. Then all of a sudden we have these crazy walls pop up. I’m not even talking about boundaries, but walls with razor wire. Yeesh. So why the weird change? Does she have a need for secrecy, is she freaked out because I know so much about her, does she have a hard time trusting? Why does she have an attachment issue? It’s amazing how she can criticize me for all my faults but get really defensive when I even try to help her out (not even criticize her). It’s like she’s projecting on me for the faults she has. I think the best things to do (like I decided a couple of weeks ago) is to take myself out of this game. Fuck, I’m being gamed. I never thought I would be. It’s a very interesting experience. I can’t be friends with her because well, I don’t think we ever had a friendship. And if we can’t communicate we’ll never get to be friends. Oh I’ll be cordial when I see her I just don’t really want any one on one time with her. It’s crazy, in July of 2008 I was inspired by her to become better and the the stuff I’ve done since then have been pretty cool. Now, 15 months later, the “friendship” over she inspires me again to move on with my life. I suppose I should thank her. I won’t, and I’m surprisingly good with that.
At 10pm we depart Barnes & Noble. HP Fan offers me a ride and I decide after bickering with mom a bit to go shopping at Hy-Vee Barlows. We talk about me getting a car. I’m not giving myself the opportunity to do things. Today I missed out on Hairball, the Chili cook-off and the International Kite Flying competition. Two weeks ago I missed out on having a nice lunch with Red Headed Chica (RHC). This is getting ridiculous; I need to give myself the opportunities. I shop until 11:30PM. By the time I get home it’s midnight. I scarf down some Taco Bell and head to bed.
