« October 2009 | Main | January 2010 »
Work was uneventful again today. I was pretty excited though. Today was the last day before a four day weekend. It’s been so long since I’ve had one of those. I was so ready for a break. I can’t wait to relax. I took a cab to work again. I write with a lot of “I’s”. Well this is my blog so I guess I don’t really care.
This evening I watched a special edition of The Biggest Loser. It was a “where are they now?” show featuring 40 of the over 200 previous contestants. Most did pretty well keeping the weight off. But one contestant was a huge, huge disappointment. I’m talking about Eric Chopin, Season 3 winner. He gained back all but 35 of the 213 pounds he lost. I saw him get a little heavier but geez, not this much. I remember crying when I saw this guy step onto the winners circle all of 197 pounds. I shed some joyful tears because of his remarkable transformation. I’m saddened by this.
I received a text from L&L around 9:30ish. She asked me if I knew if the DAHLC would be open on Thanksgiving. Really? Is it ever open on Thanksgiving? She should have called them. Y’know, we’re both friends with DoRoo, the Director of the DAHLC, L&L could have text her with that question. Not knowing how to respond I sent L&L the following text, “Want me to text DoRoo to find out?” I text DoRoo and told her about L&L’s text. She got a chuckle out of it. So L&L have been trying to reach out to each other for a few months now; always dancing around the bush a little. So I guess this was her way of hitting me with a baseball bat and telling me to wake up. Subtle. About an hour later I send her the following text, “BTW, I miss my friend too.” She replies back and wishes me a Happy Thanksgiving and asks if we should do breakfast sometime. I say sure.
Posted at 05:30 PM | Permalink | Comments (0) | TrackBack (0)
If being invited over for the holiday’s is any sign of being close with people then I am fucked. I have no invites, anywhere. The holidays really do give me a hollow feeling on the inside. Good grief I hate them. I think I need too marry into a large family to a woman who is at least 10 years younger than I and willing to have a bunch of kids. That, and develop closer relationships.
I’ve been wondering why I always seek approval. Why do I always think everything I think and feel is wrong? Why do I continuously question my own judgment? Maybe it’s not important why. Those feelings are there. I do need to get over them.
I can’t get my shit together. I took a cab too work today…again. I’m always just behind in everything and trying to play catch up. My credit sucks (not really the same issue I realize but the root cause is the same I believe). How do I get things together so I can pay off my debt, save, buy a car and buy a new house? Good grief, I’m being pulled into so many directions at once. How do I become that man, a better man? Many of you might say that I’m already great or at least kind of nifty but really, there’s no way to sugar coat this, if I was that man I wouldn’t be in the situation I’m in.
I met with my Race Conference team today; Div Chick (Diversity Council), and Nervous Nel (HR Director for the City of
After the 90 minute meeting I grabbed a bite to eat at zPizza. From there I went to yet another dreadful of my Project Communications class. At least we had a guest speaker for class this evening. It turns out that the guest speaker was cut from the same cloth that my teacher is. In fact, the guest had hired my instructor over 30 years go to teach at Saint Mary’s. It was going to be yet another fairly boring night.
Posted at 05:29 PM | Permalink | Comments (0) | TrackBack (0)
